Looking For Gold | no title

In the white balcony of her new home, she is leaning over the brown fence to watch the trees in the morning, still have there live color which doesn't change since she was walking around them, when she was  15 years old. She always thinks that they mean to remind her of the part of her life that she doesn't want to forget, so she closes her eyes and goes to the calmnest part of her mind to hear: "I stood all the hardships of my life for a long time!", that what she thought at that time, 13 years ago. "I deserve a reward."  then she added:" and it should be now". She believed that her life -at that moment- stops, and the end should be a happy one, no more pressure, no more fights to convince people of her abilities and creativity, there should be only laughters accompanying relief and no more challenges to make others accept her as a writer. She looked like a man who ran away on his horse back in a short race to win the life cup, she couldn't understand that to have the life cup forever, she should be in a long race for a long time. She found herself in a story she never chose, but she knew that she was the only one who was able to write the end, so to be the heroin of a novel, she had to have more pages in her life to form a plot that deserves to be narrated. Writing always takes long time, and it could require more time than usual if her readers don't know her. She believed that if they don't know her then they will never believe in her, adding to her so-called supporters who saw her young enough to be away from pens and books. She was young and always wanted to have a happy ending like classical bedtime stories. Then she found focus living in solitude, while patience was her friend who always made her laugh, so she can go on writing. Now she is 28, still have time to live another sweet and sour part of life that may push her forward to create new challenges for herself, she finds that happiness was only distinguished when she reads her past life, and concerning her reward, it is being a writer of live stories .